I was paralyzed. The body refuses to listen. Even my heart seemed to stop. This scene... How do I feel looking at all this? Fear? Bitterness? Anger? Or else... Could it be... I need to think about this carefully.
The first thing I feel when I wake up is cold.
Cold... It's very cold... Strange. Breath. Then exhale.
When I finally come to my senses, I realize. My bed is soaked in sweat. Through and through. At least squeeze. Thirst arose. I lost too much fluid last night.
Taking the bedding, I get up to go to the bathroom. Along the way, I'm still thinking about this dream. Why did I dream about him and who is this girl? I didn't remember her face, but I can say with confidence that she is beautiful, very beautiful.
When I get to the bathroom, the first thing I do is throw the bedding into the washing machine and go to wash.
Putting the shower on warm water, I start to wash. But, the strange thing is that the cold has not disappeared. Hoping to get rid of the cold, I increase the temperature of the water until the cold passes. I was disappointed, the cold remained even when I increased the temperature to the limit.
After washing up somehow, I go to the kitchen hoping to forget about everything through food. Having prepared a couple of delicacies of my own production, I sat down rubbing my hands.
The food is great as always, because I cooked it myself.
It's not good to praise yourself.
Shut up.
Yes, I'm talking to myself, is there a problem?
After breakfast, I started preparing for school. After getting dressed, I looked at the time 7:30. It's time for school.
Along the way, I saw workers rushing to work, couples going to school together. And loners like me, not having such an opportunity, go alone or with friends.
You had a lot of chances to get yourself a girlfriend, but you, like a true retard, did not understand a single hint.
How can I understand these hints? Even scientists can't understand their meaning, not like me.
Yeah, I found someone to compare it with. Scientists are not ladies' men and cannot understand this because of the low emotional component.
But that's what I am.
Forget.
Then, I got to school in silence. Going up to the second floor and passing through several offices, I enter the classroom.
There are few students in the class who probably have nothing to do at home.
Just like you
I just wake up early.
And you've been doing nothing since the morning.
I'm thinking about the highly spiritual.
Yes, yes, whatever you say.
You have no right to judge me because I am you.
Okay, I give up.
After arguing with myself, I get to my seat and start preparing for the upcoming lesson.
All the rest of the time I was doing something incomprehensible. I didn't even notice how the class was gradually filling up with people.
I came to myself only with a call.
You need to keep yourself normal. Don't give anyone cause for concern.
This is very difficult.
But...
I can handle it.
Why do I always feel like someone is watching me?
I would like to believe that this is just paranoia.
Even if it's a hallucination. Just a reaction to lack of sleep.
Everything is fine... are you okay?
I made it up.
It's just a bad dream.
A prophetic dream.
— ...
What kind of nonsense is this?
What just happened now?
Am I losing my mind?
It's like the brain decided to have a sparring match with itself.
My head is splitting.
The train of bad thoughts stopped.
I'm in the store. In part, it saved me.
I started to get sick from eating, so I'll make do with a bottle of water.
Should I go back?
(As if I have a choice...)
...
Back in class, I blow out half a bottle in one sitting. Increased sweating affects.
This water has slightly changed the situation. The body seems to have come out of a critical situation, now I'm terribly sleepy.
I don't understand how my body works at all.
But...
I can't do this anymore.
It seems that this is exactly the case.
I'm tired and I want to sleep.
Sprawled on the desk in an embrace with water, I fall asleep.
Waking up, I look at the clock.
14:23
Lessons ended a long time ago. I'm the only one in the office.
Nobody remembered about me.
- No nightmares this time...
I didn't dream at all. I slept like a log.
I look out the window.
The sky is overcast.
Rain. Strong wind.
Background thunderstorms.
Going somewhere now doesn't seem logical.
However, I fold up and head for the exit without noticing the absence of one item. I remembered this right before I left.
When I get back, I search the classroom.
Unsuccessfully.
There is no water bottle anywhere.
Considering that I slept with my head on it...
There was no way she could get lost.
— Did someone steal my water?
It sounds rather comical.
But I'm not having fun at all.
Who would need a half-empty water bottle? She's completely ordinary. Absolutely the same is in the dining room in unlimited quantities. There was no need to steal.
More recently, the relatively comfortable condition rapidly began to deteriorate.
Calm down. No need to wind yourself up. Everything is fine.
As a result, having decided that this is not such a problem, I successfully forget about this incident. At least I'm still freaking out.
It's much more important to get home now.