Nour walked with steady steps while he left behind her beautiful rhythm with a rustle sound of his royal dress with the marble floor
he continued his walk surrounded by his service and the knights from the side of the long porch
of course he did not forget to control himself and return to his quiet nature
Nour arrived at the end of the hallway, where the sun's rays stormed the place from that big door
Nour noticed a person standing waiting there
they also support that that person was a note and bent out of the salutation hymn
Nour received it as a usual matter
he completed his steps while that person follows him from the side
* Reyde Titara Niran* my cousin, who does not really know how to think
is that kind of neglected and wise person at the same time
given his position I do not know if he is hostile to my authority or follows it
he did not reject me before before he had an opinion In it and wanted to participate
but at the same time, before I was a crown prince, he told me that the omega should be adorned and remained in its garden only
It is difficult for me to make a last judgment on him, so I consider it neutral in relation to power
it is true that he was one of the competitors as a royal prince, but as soon as the position became for me, he withdrawn all his desire and devoted himself to the family and served it
it seems well, but for For me, I just want to know his true feelings and what I really be for him
because I really don't understand, if he really cares about me or just a prince
I didn't care about it anymore and continued my journey abroad.
The sky was so beautiful and the sun was shining like a bright light as if to emphasize the happiness of this day.
I closed my eyes for a moment and inhaled some fresh air to reopen my eyes to the splendor of the view outside.
On the one hand, it's just a normal visit, he could have come normally, but here he's flexing his muscles.
Three spaceships in total, the one in the front is the one Yan is sitting in and the other contains the gifts.
I love your concern, Yan.
I can't help but love you, how can I hate someone who can fight the world for me and my happiness
You know how much I love you, that's why you're doing this
I want to see you quickly before my insides explode for your affection and your cold touch on my skin.
Please show up because I can't take it anymore
I can't control myself anymore so don't try to play with me and get off that ship now
Haha, ecstatic sighs escape my mouth, how long has it been since I felt this refreshing?
I really like him very much
Rather, I no longer see anyone but him, or it can be said that I am dying in love with him
If love is a crime, then it can be said that Yan is the leader of the criminals and I am his first and last victim.
Or perhaps I am like a weak candle in front of the winds, and whenever the wind blows to extinguish me, the great fire comes to renew me.
This is Yan, whenever our love was about to fade, he came with the power of Amber and connected our hearts and souls as one soul and one heart, filled with love and happiness.
If I sat for a thousand years expressing my feelings, it wouldn't be enough time
So my heart is sick with love and there is no cure for it, like advanced cancer.
A disease that slowly creeps into your body without you noticing, grows inside you, and does not appear on you until the rites of your death begin at its gates.
This is cancer and it is also blind love
I never learn from the past so I love him, if I was someone who learns from his experiences I wouldn't love him so much so that what happened to my mother wouldn't happen to me
My eyes eagerly witnessed the moment a white flying car emerged from the main ship, heading down.
The process only took a few seconds, but watching it with all these emotions in mind, it seemed like hours, maybe even years, had passed.
A smile almost penetrates my ears, but I won't care because I really want to see him again and feel his touch on my body that longs for his companion before my heart
Yan walked out with firm steps, his surrounding aura controlling everything.
It was dense and hostile to everyone.
Everyone felt suffocated by this aura and the great aroma as they bowed to greet this venerable prince.
Except me, as I stand tall and look at him with a smile, receiving that aura and that scent as a part of me and my soul.
How I love his looks that focus only on me, forgetting everything around him
He walked towards me ignoring all those great greetings as if they were worthless just to reach out to me and extend his hand towards me.
A voice came out of my mouth, quieter than I expected, as if the storm inside me had no effect now.
My voice didn't convey any specific emotions and that's what I hate.
But Yan knows what's inside me and that's what matters most to me.
A gentle touch landed on my right eye.
I felt a little cold from that touch and my skin shivered a little before I got used to it while he wiped my eyes gently and looked at me longingly
Like a monster that wants to swallow everything I am made of
I don't know if Yan noticed this, but after sharing the warmth between our hearts and Our bodies, he always started by caressing my right eye with his cold touches. And he gently strokes my eyelashes that tremble violently with his overflowing desire.
There was no more room to talk, my body was merely conveying most of what I wanted to say, and Yan's gentle caresses responded to my comfortable silence.
But we both know that we must break this moment and close our souls so that we do not get immersed in it more. The place we are in now does not allow us to bond together for long.
I feel a heaviness in my mouth and a severe thirst in my throat, but this does not prevent me from moving my lips to talk to my companion Yan.
I know and see that Yan is focused on How my lips move against my will as he smiles wickedly
"Did you have a good trip?"
I didn't really have anything to say so I started with his travel habits.
Although I broke the silence that seemed to be eternal, the other party had no intention of withdrawing his hand or stopping this aura.
"When I think about coming to see you, I can't stop counting the time."
Yan's first words weren't an expression of any intention to withdraw or retreat, just a complete desire to establish himself in me.
His words were kind.
"So was counting time fun?"
This time Yan didn't remain silent for long and answered immediately.
"The thought of being able to get to you soon made the reckoning more fun."
Another sigh escaped my mouth, not from a burning desire, but from a desire screaming with all its might for more.
"I'm glad you were okay."
Honest words, free of any compliments. This is what Yan wants to hear, and it is what I want too.
One truth that fate has woven into strong, unbreakable threads that wrap our lives together. No one can break it.
"How was my dear?"
Saying the word "dear" had a special effect that could only shake my heart from its place and make it scream loudly as I saw those waterfalls of love flowing from Yan's eyes.
I couldn't stand without even satisfying some of this desire. So I took his hand that was caressing me and brought it closer to my mouth after I inhaled its fragrant scent for a while until I planted a kiss on it And I breathe in all the pent-up longing until my companion feels what is inside me so that he does not joke with me anymore while we are in such a place
But once I buried my face in his hand I didn't dare push it away from me.
The way I chose to tell Yan to wait longer worked against me and clouded my mind and distorted my view of what was right.
A light laugh escaped Qom Yan knowing I was currently struggling with all those emotions rushing out.
Yan took his hand away and I was half thankful for this to come to my senses but the other half of me was not happy about this
But what followed was so surprising that it made my dormant instincts, which I feared, awaken.
He came closer to me and planted a gentle kiss on my forehead, then my eyes, and started caressing me again by wiping the skin under my eyes. With that smile of victory
The heat spread across my face and stained me like someone with a fever.
I must have looked weird, but Yan didn't push me or say that.
He just took her hand and cupped my face while lifting it a little higher so our eyes could meet.
"How much I love you, crazy!"
Yan's habit that he never gets rid of when expressing his sincere feelings
I raised my hand and grabbed his hands that were on my face and pulled them off while intertwining them with mine.
" Me too "
I got rid of his hands and all my feelings for a while and pointed back.
"His Majesty is waiting inside."
He smiled as if he was staying up late with me, and at the same time his feelings pushed him towards an unknown darkness, thus returning him to being just an ordinary person, or rather to the crown prince of a great empire.
"Well you're right, I have to say hello."
I was about to turn around but Yan pulled the hem of my clothes forcefully.
She looked at me wondering what he wanted.
But a pile of flowers and roses She is the one who objected to my words
It was beautiful in shape and looked like it was made of glass even though it was blue-white in color.
Color indicates one alpha in the world
I am so captivated by the beauty of flowers and the emotions that suffocate me.
Yan's words woke me up from my captivity, but they increased my emotion and longing.
"They're all pheromone roses that I took care of myself."
Every word he said had a beautiful melody.
He planted it himself and made my heart melt in love for him and those roses.
Pheromone flower, who does not know it? It is the rarest type of flower. It only grows in a near-perfect environment and with the right pheromone care.
Although most of its cultivation has failed, rarely has anyone managed to make a single flower grow.
And now Yan is telling me that this large quantity, enough to cover my room, has been ripened with his scent.
It tickles my heart and lightens my soul when I see how much Yan cares for me through what he offers.
To think how many failed experiments, how much effort and time wasted to grow all this amount makes my insides twist with happiness
I feel the looks of envy and hatred from my relatives who came out to greet my fiancé
But who cares about them now I was already drowning in Yan's scent
I took that giant bouquet of flowers and buried my face in it, inhaling its scent.
Because what distinguishes these flowers from others is their ability to store the pheromones of their grower and release them when their petals are rubbed.
The scent of Yan's pheromones in the flowers made her orgasm reach its maximum endurance.
I lifted my face away from the flowers and with weak eyes that could no longer distinguish between right and wrong, drowned in his love, I thanked him.
"I am very grateful to you."
There was a flash of madness on Yan's face as a monster wanted to run to him and taste every aspect of me and my emotions.
A desperate and frightening desire appeared on his features before disappearing as if it had never existed before.
I don't know the exact reason, but my current features must have done this to him.
I can't describe myself now, but the features I showed were enough to tell a story about my current features.
I shook my head slightly to stop these thoughts and force my mind back to reality after hearing some muttering around me.
Yan extended his hand and I took it naturally. We walked through the long corridor in complete silence until we arrived in front of a huge door that represented the emperor's office.
The door opened from the knights' shoulders and they announced the arrival of these two in love couples.
We entered and Yan greeted my grandfather with a smile and a simple nod of his head.
"I'm glad to see you with such energy, Your Majesty. It's been a while since I've seen you like this."
The emperor raised his gaze towards the person who had captured his grandson's heart and was about to cast a curse on him.
"What energy, at this rate I'm going to become a corpse from having so many nightmares since I received the news of your arrival"
"I am so happy that you think of me so much."
The Emperor would have surely been about to curse Yarkan, had it not been for Noor's glances from the side that almost pierced him.
The emperor waved his hand as a last resort to himself.
"You can go, we'll talk later at dinner."
Yan smiled wider and nodded in satisfaction.
"As expected of your majesty, you understand the matter quickly."
For the thousandth time, the Emperor's expression almost betrayed him, so he gave up on talking to Yarkan and motioned for both of them to leave.
Just as the wind had brought them here, it had already taken them away, leaving the Emperor's office empty in silence once again.
The emperor spoke with an annoyed tone of voice.
"I'm suffocating, open the window quickly"
The stunned servant opened the window and a fresh air entered the office, washing away the scent of the previous duo.
"Young adulthood is really stressful."
The emperor once again felt a shiver run through his veins at the sight of the two of them together.
Nourian and Yarkan did not realize that they were two different people.
No, to be more precise, he was one person, like a coin that has two sides.
The amount of love that brought their two souls together made me feel cold and unnecessarily uncomfortable.
Yes, it was my best choice when I kicked them out of here.
Because the scene of the harmony of souls under the weight of bread was frightening to my eyes.
The Emperor inadvertently rubbed his body to try to get rid of the terrible feeling that overwhelmed him from seeing his grandson and fiancé like that.
Even after some time, the emperor could not get rid of his terrible feeling, so he finished his work and went to change his place, hoping that this feeling would disappear.
On the other hand, both Nour and Yan had arrived at Nour's palace, or more precisely, his bedroom.
"Everyone can leave"
Noor dismissed all the servants, and as soon as everyone left, Ban pulled Noor forcefully towards him.
The flowers fell and scattered on the ground.
Nour's muscles tightened and contracted under that burning lust.
Yan didn't give Noor a chance to catch his breath as he kissed him feverishly. He licked and bit his lips, pushed his tongue into his mouth and stuck to Noor's tongue in a deep caress.
The deep kiss ended, leaving a long line connecting the two mouths, indicating the length and depth of the kiss.
Nour's breathing was ragged and uneven, and his heartbeat was almost piercing his chest.
He leaned on Yan's shoulder to catch his breath.
"Huh, huh"
He was so upset that he closed his eyes to stop his pounding heart.
But Yan didn't allow Noor to try to control his emotions.
Yan muttered as his teeth chattered together and with ragged breaths those mutterings came out with a deep desire for more.
"We are alone now"
It was a secret word that had already made the last spell of self-control break, so that the rationality of Noor's mind had left him, and all that remained were his free feelings.
Those eyes that resemble the Milky Way in space shine brightly in the midst of that darkness, tempting those around them to come closer so that they can swallow their victim inside, unwilling to release them.
Enchanting eyes that drive you crazy whenever you see their light, you want more, and to see more you have to satisfy their owner with desires and seduce them with unforgettable affection and non-stop touches
Yes, those are the eyes of my dear Nour, the eyes of my beloved who make you a wild animal that thinks only of how to defile that camel and make it moan with your caresses
There is nothing more enjoyable than hearing those sighs as the space overflows with waterfalls of water.
"Ahh....ahh"
Despite all the pain and pleasure, he never closed his eyes once. It's as if it conveys his desire to watch me as I pamper him and enjoy every move I make.
I never get enough or tired of seeing those eyes, and with another simple push, a muffled voice full of tenderness came out from between his lips without pride.
"Aaah... Yan... Yan"
His eyes overflowed with tears from the pain.
Yet I don't want even a single drop to go to waste.
So even the drop of Don I drank like a person about to die who has found the water of life
Yes I am dead without this enjoyable torture
I can't exist without this warmth around me.
"Yan.. I really love you"
Despite all this suffering, he still calls my name despite the pain
Those pushes, sighs, pressures and touches all over his body did not make him forget to call me and express how much he loved me. Even though I know he's barely holding on to consciousness from all the thrusts we've had together just now.
Every time I'm surprised that I can let out such a wild sound from my mouth.
I held my hand and adjusted Noor's bangs that fell over his eyes and smiled like a lustful beast
How do I control myself after my vision of Noor's beautiful eyes became clearer?
Is there anyone sane enough to stand firm in the face of these eyes?
He wiped his eyes in interest.
"Don't cry, dear, there's only a little left."
A simple sentence that made me struggle hard to get it out of my mouth.
And with a final push, the warmth slid between our bodies and intertwined in comfort and harmony.
Until the last moment, Nour continued to stare at my movements with longing and pain.
Nour's hand was weakly moved, unable to move it.
This prompted me to hold his hand before it fell and bring it closer to my face according to his mute desire.
His hand gently wiped my lower lip and with a smile that could melt mountains, he opened his mouth, filled with relief and gratitude.
"My most precious possession and my most beautiful meeting, you know how much I love you without further words."
He looked like someone who had lost his mind and no longer had the strength to speak, but he expressed what was on his mind with a few words that made Yan furious again without hiding it.
When Nour felt this, he smiled a beautiful smile, and with eyes of space and the voice of melodies of the mermaids, he uttered his last words before Yan pounced on him again.
"I want more"
Yan looked at him and started to iron out this temptation.
"This is too much for me to bear, Noor."
Whenever Nour asked for Yan with his words and groans, Yarkan responded to that with graceful movements that played with Nour's body.
" Yes, my dear"
If love was a person, the love between Yan and Noor would be more than that person.
The sun began to set and shadows began to creep into the room. It was time to get out of bed and answer the Emperor's dinner call.
But neither of them wanted to move or separate from each other.
It was like a game of whoever stands up first loses, and it was a game that both of them loved, even though neither of them had the desire to really move.
Noor's bangs were covering his eyes again, but he didn't care, as he was now in his companion's arms to relax.
But Yan did not hesitate to push away his bangs to meet Noor's beautiful gaze again.
No matter how much he looks, he is never satisfied and finds himself again caressing his eyes again.
The first to break the silence was Nour after he let out a strong sigh to remove the remnants of his happy euphoria
"You know we have to move now."
Yan hummed a little and smiled.
"We can stay like this longer."
Nour did not answer, but his silence was enough to convey his desire to stay longer in Yan's embrace.
" Good "
One word then he closed his eyes and inhaled Yan's scent before surrendering to the sleep that came to him after receiving a boost of pleasure and comfort with his unforgettable companion.
Yan noticed this and began to kiss Noor's head before hugging him closer and burying his head in his neck until he closed his eyes for a while on this beautiful day.
After a short while, Nour opened his eyes and the fatigue quickly disappeared as if it had never happened.
Nothing changed as Yarkan was beside him staring at him. But if there was anything to point out, it was that the traces of pleasure had disappeared from their bodies.
Even the clothes and bedding were thrown into a corner of the room in one small pile.
"Are you feeling better?"
Nour yawned lightly and then answered
"Yes, I'm fine now."
"No pain"
Nour began to examine his body and move the bed a little.
"There is no pain, just some scars. "
Yan smiled brightly and got up slightly from the bed, revealing his perfectly sculpted body.
"It's not a little"
Yan had pointed out the marks etched on their bodies from previous enjoyment as little more than what Noor had described, but rather as elegantly etched all over their bodies.
"You look beautiful"
Yan looked innocently at Noor and asked,
"Who is beautiful?"
Nour smiled at Yan's malicious intentions and slowly got up before throwing his upper body on Yan's chest.
" Everything about you is beautiful, even your heartbeats."
Yan gently wiped Noor's head and back with his hand so that he wouldn't feel any pain while pressing his head on Noor's head.
Yan and Noor shared a small laugh before silence returned between them and they continued doing what they were doing before.
Until Yan broke the silence
" Do you like it? "
Noor's hand gently touched Yan's chest, specifically his heart.
"He is very cool and honest contrary to what you say"
Nour expressed what was feeling at that moment and it was enough to answer his lover's question
"Do you know if we keep going like this we might end up in a other round?"
"What's the harm in that?"
Nour's answer left Yan speechless for a moment as he tried to control his mind and regain his senses.
" The servant was knocking on the door for a long time."
Nour shook his head up and looked at Yan.
"Really so"
Yan nodded in agreement and then kissed his head again.
Nour buried his head in Yan's chest and hummed inwardly.
"Carry me then"
Yarkan's hand clenched for a moment before returning to brushing Nour's back.
How could he not know that if his lover behaves this way, he has not yet gotten rid of the effects of playing together?
Yan had to keep up with Nour's moods because in this situation he was very moody.
It's kind of like when he's drunk, it's like the innocence of children comes out in those moments.
He starts acting like a little child in everything.
And that was nice of nour
Yan stood up and carried Noor in his arms to prepare him to leave.
Throughout the preparation process, Nour did not say anything except complaining of pain and crying like a child about wanting to sleep.
The two of them were ready, and Yan Noor grabbed Noor's body so that he wouldn't stumble while walking, and led him towards the dining hall as if Yan was the master of the palace and not Noor.
The two arrived and the servant announced their arrival, but he didn't dare make any comment about Noor's appearance and just bowed to them.
The two of them entered together and as expected, it was just a simple family dinner where family members gathered for dinner with light music and chatting.
Well, there was no one who could catch Yan's eye or be worthy of greeting.
On the contrary, everyone stood up to salute the two royal couples.
Nour and Yan nodded in response to the greeting and headed to their seats.
The table was small in width but incredibly long and filled with different foods while the light music created a romantic atmosphere in the place, if not for those stinging looks.
Jali Nour is on the right of the Emperor while Haliya Yan is opposite him on the left of the Emperor
"You two are a little late."
"Dinner hasn't started yet, Your Majesty."
Nour answered while looking around him, trying to find even one loophole on his family members' faces to spoil dinner and return to his companion's embrace and sleep together.
Since Noor's intention was clear to his grandfather, he swallowed his words and started eating.
"Thank you all for coming today to welcome my fiancé. On the occasion of this happy family gathering, I want everyone to enjoy themselves and take their gift with them before leaving."
Although it seems that Nora is truly thankful to them, he still points out that their ability to enter the palace today was due to the arrival of his fiancé.
He also points out that his fiancé is still by his side and has brought many gifts to the in-laws' family members and has not forgotten, which is a strong confirmation that Nu and Yan's relationship continues despite everyone.
"You can start eating."
Many hearts clenched their teeth in secret, and there were those who tugged at the sleeves of their uniforms until their hands were stained white with anger and resentment.
But they said nothing because of the emperor's order to start.
Despite the strength and poise he showed, Nour was still acting childishly, and his envy hadn't yet healed from his fatigue, so it was painful to move his hands to eat.
Nour usually starts with his favorite soup before eating. He eats it and then proceeds with the rest of the food.
He took his food slowly and moved to the next plate. After all that practice, he needed a lot of food now.
Yan hardly ate but enjoyed watching Noor struggle with his food.
His thoughts were interrupted by the Emperor's words.
"Your first day isn't over yet."
It was a sign that Yan was in such a hurry to do this with such intensity.
Yan smiled calmly, his eyes still not leaving Noor's face.
" What should I do if my lover asks for more every time? "
Grandfather felt suffocated for a moment, even the people around him, from Yan's confusing frankness.
"Take care of your health, Your Majesty."
If looks could kill, Yan would be dead for the tenth time this evening.
"Apart from that, why is he in this condition?"
Everyone was listening, it was strange for this person to act like this even if he was in pain
Yan answered the Emperor's curiosity and the rest with a wider smile and sparks of love overflowing from his eyes.
"You should enjoy this scene, Your Majesty, because this might be the first and last time you see this side of Noor."
Yan took the meat plate from Noor and started cutting it for him as he started feeding him.
"It's a journey where Noor's childlike personality emerges after he gets into a perfect drunken state."
The emperor looked at Yan's action and sighed after seeing Noor's natural response.
"But he doesn't seem drunk."
Yan smiled slyly as if he had been waiting for this question for a long time.
"Your Majesty, there is something better than getting drunk."
The emperor felt an ominous feeling and was about to stop the next words but Yan beat him to it.
"Overwhelming euphoria and physical transformation without relief is the perfect drunken state."
"Oh.."
He was really going to curse this time.
Finally, for the first time since Yan entered, he turned his face away from Noor, but the smile had disappeared, as if the smile had been reserved for Noor only
"Didn't you ask me to tell you?"
The Emperor closed his mouth and Yan did not say more and continued feeding Noor.
Nour stopped eating and even though Yan brought another spoonful of food, Nour did not open his mouth.
Yan put down the spoon and took a tissue to gently wipe Nour's face. This action almost caused some people to faint.
" Are you full? "
" My throat is dry "
Yan had no choice but to get up from his seat, take the juice to Noor, and help him drink it.
"Do you want more?"
"It's not refreshing."
Nour was not satisfied with this juice so Yan took it upon himself to find a drink that Nour would like.
As soon as he found the right drink on that huge table, he went back to Nour's side to drink it.
Yan carried the cup elegantly and brought it close to Noor's lips. Noor did not refuse this, but simply started drinking.
The sight of Noor's neck moving while drinking was tempting to Yan, but he stopped his current desires.
Nour signaled to Yan to stop because he was satisfied.
Before Yan could return to his chair, Noor pulled him by his clothes.
"Do you need anything else?"
Although Nour was half asleep, he was still alert.
"You didn't eat anything."
Yan smiled awkwardly because it seemed he had been caught.
This surprised the emperor and he looked at Yan's plate. In fact, no one noticed because Yan continued to feed Noor, so we did not know whether Yan ate or not.
But his grandson's observation, although not conscious, made him realize once again how much Noor cared for Yan even when he was half asleep.
"I thought I was over it, how did you know?"
"As you did, I was watching you too."
Well that's nice, Yan wasn't the only one watching Noor, Noor was watching him too.
"Just seeing you eat makes me feel full."
Nour looked at Yan silly and pinched his hand lightly.
"Stop talking and sit down."
Yan raised his hands high and returned to his place.
"Okay, okay, don't be angry."
Nour pointed to one of the servants.
"Wherever you ask, prepare it."
"I will bring it to you, Your Majesty."
The maid immediately went to bring the dish that Nour had added a while ago.
The maid brought a sumptuous meal of seafood, cooked to a tempting and fragrant perfection.
The maid placed the plate in front of Yan at Nour's command before stepping back again.
"Is this for me?"
Nour smiled and spoke
"It's the only food Yan likes here."
Yan wiped his face a little, then smiled and picked up his cutlery
"So shall we start eating?"
The food was finished and it was time for dessert and nothing happened.
There were still some activities left but Noor kept yawning and Yan was about to ask to leave.
But Nour interrupted Yan's conversation with his grandfather.
Nour stopped following the conversation around him and walked sleepily towards Yan
"Your Majesty, wait a moment."
Some people tried to stop Nour, but he raised his hand to stop them.
"Enough talk"
Nour continued his steps until he reached Yan and hugged him from behind.
Yan felt the touch of warm hands on his body and it gave him a wonderful feeling of pleasure.
"Yan carry me, I want to sleep"
Grandfather thanked himself because he wasn't eating anything now or he might die from a lump in his throat.
"As I told you before, Nour is very tired."
"Yes, you can go."
Despite this, Noor was already extending his hands towards Yan, and Yan did not thwart Noor's childish desire.
Yan carried Noor like a princess and kissed his forehead, wishing him sweet dreams.
"Sweet dreams, dear."
Yan didn't move even a single step and Noor had truly fallen asleep.
The grandfather thought that he would not be surprised after what he saw at the dinner table, but again Noor disappoints him and surprises him even more.
The person who only sleeps after examining his surroundings and is sensitive to any noise falls into a deep sleep like a child in the arms of this alpha
This grandfather is beginning to understand what it means to have a companion you love.
But more than that, he was amazed at Yarkan's ability to keep up with all of his grandson's erratic behavior.
"Open the windows"
Emperor's order
The order was executed without delay.
Even if the Emperor hadn't ordered it, someone would have had to open the windows to expel that overwhelming smell that Yarkan had left behind when he carried Nour earlier.
The next morning
It wasn't as sunny as yesterday, it was more like a bad day.
Maybe Nour's bad mood is what made him think that today was like that.
He doesn't know if it was all a dream or if he started hallucinating from the pain.
Let's go back a minute before this annoying feeling.
Nour woke up naturally from his bed and started to contemplate his surroundings.
But he did not find what he was looking for, nor any scent indicating his presence.
It was a disaster that made Noor's phobia come back again.
He clutched his heart in a relapse before fear took over, trying to calm himself down.
Take it easy, Noor, nothing happened.
Yes, yesterday I am not mistaken or delusional, Yan was here
Yes, those warm touches and the feeling of bodies intertwined with each other are real and inevitable.
Certainly Yan's comfort and beautiful steps when he presented the flowers were tempting.
Wake up, Noor, you are not delusional
Ahhh..ahhh
gasping... choking
Nour clutched his chest tighter and tried to catch his breath.
Stop it, you are not in the past but with it
Oh me, don't let the darkness swallow you up
Where is he, where, why?
Painful... Painful
Nour didn't notice that he was holding his breath and was drowning in the darkness of his fear.
He was afraid that the events of the past three years would be repeated.
It was the worst period Nour had ever lived through in his life.
Nour was drenched in cold sweat and his body trembled with fear of losing his companion for the second time.
No, what scared him more now was that everything he experienced yesterday was just a hallucination of his imagination.
Yes, there is a possibility of that. How many times has this happened when he was away from Yan?
Ahhh.. huh.. Huh... huh
Nour almost ripped his throat out from his creeping fear.
Tears naturally gathered at the edges of his sparkling eyes and tangled with his eyelashes in despair.
He shook his head to push away the pain and fear because he was sure that what happened yesterday was true.
The fact that Yan was here, feeding him and sharing his warmth was undeniable.
Yes I must have gone crazy just for a moment, how can I say that everything that happened yesterday was all fake
I must have lost my mind from all the hallucinations these past few days.
Maybe I really need a doctor.
No, what am I babbling about? All I want is to see Yan.
He couldn't move his lips or make any sound as if his voice wanted to mock him.
It was a terrible feeling to know his body's condition yet have no control over it.
" Good morning Nour "
Yan's voice was a stimulus to Noor's instincts and was enough to make the fear creeping towards him return once again to the darkness hidden in his heart
Yan approached after seeing Noor's trembling state and sat beside him.
" Dear Noor, what happened? "
Yan grabbed Nour and shook him a little, shocked by Nour's desperate looks.
The tears and the terrible state of his appearance made Yan's heart tear with pain.
He felt the feelings of his companion Nour.
Fear, pain, anxiety, phobia, sadness..
It was a different but terrible feeling.
How can one person carry so many feelings?
I felt a tremor in my body and I couldn't do anything about it.
I was helpless in the face of this wave of raging emotions with no ability to do anything.
I grabbed his face even though I didn't know what to say to calm him down.
I don't know why he's like this, even if I asked, I don't expect him to tell me
I tried to calm him down a little by slowly caressing his face.
" Breathe, Noor, breathe "
"I'm here, don't worry"
I don't know but this fear seems to be related to me
His feelings are intense and I couldn't bear them on my own, so how could he bear them?
Our eyes met and I read the comfort in his eyes after he saw me and the despair disappeared from them
So in the end, again I'm the one who caused him all this pain.
I saw him raise his hands and press my face longingly as if he had just woken up from a bad dream.
He held my face despite his trembling hands and pressed his forehead against mine, trying to suppress his agitation.
I just watch what he does unable to help with anything
I'm just waiting for him to relax and talk to me.
He's smiling now, is he happy that I'm here even though I'm the reason for his pain?
What should I really do with you?
I don't understand anything anymore
His lips moved tremblingly and a broken bird's sound came out of them, but he still smiled.
"It's real"
He moved closer to me until our noses were touching and I could feel his ragged breath on my face.
"You're here and you're not wrong."
I could feel the relief that flooded Noor's heart from seeing me.
His hands naturally touched my body without any reservation or hesitation.
" This shit must mean you're alive"
"Yes, a dead person would be much cooler than this. "
He pressed his body weakly against mine as if trying to make sure I was alive.
I couldn't help but pull him into a hug to keep him warm.
His voice changed to a muffled one, trying to hold back the tears from falling.
"You didn't leave this time."
Nour held onto my clothes so tightly that the whiteness of his fingers appeared devoid of life's blood.
"You're here, and I'm in your arms. It's not like last time."
The picture has become clear, how can he forget?
Back in the day, Yan had shared his warmth with Noor before suddenly disappearing three years ago.
So it's a deep scar engraved on his soul the day I left.
I hugged him tighter as I realized the reason more and more.
I kissed his head and stroked his hair gently.
I tried as much as I could to transfer the feeling of life inside me to Noor
"I'm here, and I won't leave you again."
I still can't stop myself from thinking
The Noor I know is a strong, kind, loving person. Even if you left like that, he wouldn't have been in such a huge shock.
Something must have happened without my knowledge, But who can tell me when Noor is keeping everything inside him, even from me?
While I was preoccupied with my thoughts, I felt Noor's breath returning to normal and the feeling of love returning to his chest.
I stroked his hair gently and with calm words spoke to him again
"Are you calm down, dear?"
I avoided talking about what happened now so that Nour would not withdraw into himself even more.
I will wait for him to take the initiative even if I wait my whole life
"Yan"
" Yes "
"Yan"
" I'm here "
"Tell me you'll never disappear again."
"I swear I'm not going anywhere without you knowing."
"You swore, don't break your promise."
"I also swear that I will not fail him."
" Thank you "
"No need to thank me, whatever you want my dear, I will make it happen."
" I love you "
I couldn't answer, I just tightened the hug between us and held him deeper into my chest.
Despite the hurt I caused Noor, he still expressed his love for me every chance I got.
And I, like a fool, respond to his sincere love and long wait only with neglect and distance.
Can we call this love?
As for Nour, he really loves me, I love him too and I can't live without him, but my actions suggest otherwise.
" I apologize "
"I don't need any words of apology."
Yes, that's what makes me never stop loving you.
Every time I make a mistake, you forgive me and give me the opportunity to forgive you.
And I, in turn, drown in your mercy and seize this opportunity as if it were the last chance to survive in this life.
I rested my head on his shoulder and inhaled his fragrant scent.
This behavior makes me love you
"Don't forgive me easily"
A soft laugh escaped his mouth, which was tempting to my ears, and his warm touch played with my hair.
"I don't really intend to do that."
" I really love you "
Those words came out of my mouth after I felt that Nour needed them more to forgive me.
"And me more"
I raised my head and met his gaze and warm smile.
I touched his forehead with mine and spoke in a slightly mocking voice.
"How can you not forgive me and love me at the same time?"
He closed his eyes and I saw him enjoying that moment as our breaths intertwined.
" I don't know "
I did the same thing and talked back to him.
"This is not fair."
I felt it without seeing it, he is happy and comfortable
"This is the effect of falling in love."
He always surprised me with his words and his excessive tenderness towards me.
"If love has this diverse effect, I would be grateful to you for making me able to possess you."
"It's my defeat again, Nour, and what a sweet defeat it is!"
And so we stayed for a while longer between that embrace and the gentle intertwining of our faces throughout the morning in comfortable silence.