As the new year pssed, she decided to go to her grandma's house. After, she went there and take her grandma to visit the doctor. As that, everything seems going well.
Days passed...
It was February 13th.
A date she had never thought would mean anything. A normal Monday. A normal February. But somehow, it didn't feel normal anymore.
Anaya stood by the window of her room, holding a warm cup of coffee in her hands. The evening sunlight filtered through the curtains, painting everything golden. Her diary lay open on the table beside her, a fresh page filled with words straight from her heart.
She had titled it "Too Happy."
For a long time, happiness had been a quiet thing for her soft, hesitant, almost like a shadow she wasn't sure she was allowed to touch. But today… it felt different. It felt like something real. Like something hers.
Her thoughts wandered back to earlier that day.
It had started simply. A smile. A short conversation. Just a few shared words during a quiet moment in the corridor.
Anaya whispered herself, " I just watched a video of him, like he was too careless when he is walking and then he bumped into a little pole in the car parking area. But, he carelessly bumped into it. Just a little miss or else he would have fallen to the ground."
But for some reason, his presence lingered longer than the words themselves. It stayed with her like the scent of rain on dry earth, like the echo of a song you didn't realize you had memorized.
"I know, he's very special to me," Anaya whispered aloud, her voice barely audible.
Anaya whispered herself, " Then, i just... I really wanted to sent a message to him. I know, he even doesn't see it, put aside on replying to me."
She continued, "then, i just opened the weibo and get into his account and just sent as 'Take care man!'. And later, you know what happened...
He .... He just ... He just replied me within in a second. "
" At a first seen... After seeing this..
My heart raced like a roller coaster.. like it was .. like i got a problem with my heart. I don't know how fast the speed of roller coaster. But, my heart seems like faster than that."
She continued, " but, it seems different from before. Do you remember when i said at first about with Vicky. I can said that, when i got that feeling at that time.., it feels a little insecure. Like, its beating because of insecurity. ."
"But, I can said that.. now, it doesn't seem like that at all. And it feels quite happy. And i really feel like that .. i really don't know what is happening but i can said that I'm happy."
She had written those very words in her diary earlier.
"It may be the starting is not as good as the ending…"
Her pen had trembled slightly while writing that. Because she knew. Not every story had a perfect beginning. Especially not hers. But, now it seems like a happy starting.
When she first saw the message, it's not the words, the one who made her heart skip is the person who sent. She even doesn't understand what he sent.. because it was in chinese. She doesn't even know a word in chinese aside his name. In fact, she wasn't even sure he noticed her or not at all. He was always there though quiet, observant, sometimes annoyingly playful, sometimes deeply kind. Maybe not in her life, but she can saw him through the screen.
But something had changed.
It wasn't sudden. Not like lightning. It was more like the slow blooming of a winter flower under sunlight soft, unnoticed until it had fully opened.
Anaya whispered herself, "But only him who's with me all the time… even some times he is the cause of sadness…"
As she wrote on the dairy, that line had hurt to write.
Because sometimes, even the ones who bring us the most joy… can also cause us the deepest ache. Not because they do anything wrong. But because we start caring more than we thought we could. And that makes us vulnerable.
She remembered yesterday, it was like he had ignored her completely. Not a word. Not a glance. Like he doesn't know her at all. She had laughed herself, pretended it didn't bother her. But her chest had felt heavy all day.
Yet today… like he is with her, like he smiled again. He spoke to her. He is willing to walked beside her.
And everything felt light again. Anaya continued writing on the dairy,
"But at the end of the day, he brings all the stars from the sky… to see the happiness in my face."
That line she had written with a smile.
Because it was true. He had a way of lighting up even the dullest of her days. Maybe he doesn't know that he can bring happiness to her.
She remembered something he said once, without meaning much by it:
"You're different from others, you know that?"
It was not for Anaya. It was meant to his all fans. He just gave a speech and said that line at the end to give every one hope to live not to discourage themselves while scoring with other's. To encourage them, that everyone has a special meaning in their way of living or character.
She didn't ask what he meant. She didn't have to. That one sentence stayed in her heart like a tiny flame that refused to go out. Because, maybe she is the one who feeels discourage herself all the time, whatever she done.. she thinks its not perfect. So, that line really made her move.
She returned to the diary and traced the soft pencil sketch she had drawn beside her entry. A boy with messy hair, kind eyes, and a quiet smile. She had drawn it instinctively, without planning.
It wasn't exactly him, but it felt like him.
Underneath it, she had written:
"It means a lot to me… it just felt like a dream."
And it had. The whole day felt unreal. Like a moment taken out of a drama she used to watch, not something from her actual life.
And maybe that's why she was scared.
"It feels like 'the happiness of love'… We may be apart from each other…"
She didn't even know what love meant entirely. Not the kind in the movies. Her understanding of it was more like… warmth. Presence. The way her grandma held her hand when she was anxious. The way this ahe looked at him when she struggled to speak but tried anyway.
Maybe that was love too.
Maybe this was her version of it.
Down the page, she had scribbled more:
"I'm just feel like I fly in the sky with stars tonight."
She read that again now and smiled. She had written it with the joy of a girl who had just found something precious. Something not everyone could see.
It wasn't about confessions or holding hands or dating. It wasn't about labels.
It was about feeling happy just because he existed near her.
That was enough.
She turned her eyes to the small sticker she had pasted beside the date. A tiny heart.
She had added it at the last minute. Her way of marking this day, February 13th as a silent memory. Not Valentine's Day. Not a special holiday.
Just a normal day when she felt seen.
She remembered the moment that changed everything today.
Back in her room now, the evening slipping gently into night, Anaya looked at the bottom of her diary page where she had written:
"But from today on, my life is start with him."
It wasn't a dramatic sentence. It wasn't even grammatically perfect.
But it held the whole weight of her heart.
From today, her story had a new chapter. Not because something grand happened. But because of that little message.
She allowed herself to feel. To hope. To wish.
She allowed herself to believe that maybe, just maybe,..
She closed her diary, placed it back on the table, and turned off the light.
But before lying down, she looked out the window once more.
The stars were out. Quiet, twinkling, watching.
Just like the ones in her heart.
And as she slipped under the blanket and closed her eyes, the words she had written earlier whispered in her mind:
"Happy Starting."
Because that's what this was.
Not a fairytale ending.
Not a perfect beginning.
Just a starting...
" Oh! Forgot to tell, that the message, she translated it through Google lens and it shows 'Chat anytime'..."
And then, after that she really doesn't have any courage to send another message.
Anaya whispered herself, " now, we are already in contact. But, i really don't know what to messge him. And I don't know does he will continue to be in contact with me like this .." in desperate mood .
She continued, " but, its fine.. I'll mke it slowly. But, today... It's really felt too tooo much happy. Like I'm really flying over to the sky.."