Why do I wait
Why do I still love you
This burning in my chest that never seems to go away
We've been through so much we promise each other infinity but I can't help but feel you rather not have that
My soul cry's your name at night
My heart sings the songs that reminds me of you
I'm cut deep lost in the darkness stubbling for the light
I'm sorry I've put you through so much I'm sorry I hurt you
All these overwhelming thoughts in my mind that cut me deep to my core
I try not to over think things I know you love me I know that you care but being just friends isn't enough for me
Of course I can just be friends of course I can do that
But it kills me not Bieng able to tell you I love you and kills me not Bieng able to show how much I care
It hurts to know that you aren't in my arms
My mind thinks and wonders all the time
I'm sorry I'm overwhelming at times I try to be open with you I try to give you space and be patient but truth is I'm not a very patient man I try and try and I always seem to mess up I always seem to make you upset by things I want to be honest about things with each other even if we think it's gonna hurt one another I want you to open up about things even if Im going through shit right now
I don't want to be the old us that messed up I want to be a new improved better version I know your trying really hard I see it trust me I do see it I just feel so lost right now because without you nothing makes sense everything feels grey and dull so please don't take this as I want you to leave again because God I can't go through that again unless that's what you truly want Idk what to do sometimes I'm so empty right now idk what to do I can't stop the tears from falling I can't help but feel this way please just tell me what to do
The broken butterfly