What the fuck is love anyways? A heartbroken mess? An unbroken promise of forever? Screw that crap, I'm tired of feeling useless and empty. This generation is so screwed up. Can't date older because you don't know half the things they talk about.
Can't date younger, because: red alert, you'rea pedophile, even if they are eighteen years old. Still pretty much a baby at some point. So, how do you find love in this modern world? When you figure it out let me know.
I don't know how to explain love or half the messed up stuff I have been through. I don't like going into details either. I am just mad and frustrated at everything and everyone. When will it be my turn? I don't want to pine, but man, I am hurting. Literally, why does everything have to end terribly for me?
I preach about kindness and loving each other. Just because the world is ending, doesn't mean that it actually is. I forget in that moment, the world is burning, crashing down hardcore in the middle of the earth. I forget that the world,in that moment, is a flaming inferno with nothing stopping it from burning. Everything is being consumed in one moment.
I hurt so much. Mentally. Physically. You would think I would have ended up in a psych ward by now. Maybe even have a therapist, but who could afford them anyways. No, I just have this thing called me, myself, and I.
A fucked up mess. Losing a friend. Losing my mind slowly. I never once found a spark, until I had met him. Everything became so consumed by Max. Then, he decided to leave. There was a new him, Damian. Then. Everything came crashing down, a burning inferno.
I want to say I was mature about it. I was chill, relaxed, but nah, I wanted to burn the whole world down. I wanted people to feel my pain. I wanted them to feel the hurt that I was feeling. I was always down for feminism, let no man make you feel like shit.
At that moment, you don't care. At that moment, I didn't care about what anybody thought. I don't want to feel anything, but I want to feel everything. People, that is why you never give anyone a reason to turn the tables.
Never make a young lady mad, or she will go batshit crazy, and show you why she's crazy in the first place. So, I'll leave this to you, you decide who is the real villain in the end.