In everyday life, we express our feelings, thoughts, opinions in different ways...
Yet, was indirectly silencing someone part of communication standards?
Was it all part of the process?
Because if it is...
Then it feels rather isolating because of fear...
This generation is more expressive.
And how about me?
Was my generation just to listen to people and not hear about my thoughts and opinions?
Was I relevant in the present story?
Or was it just unnecessary to talk?
If it is that reason, then why would people consider taking me into that public space when I am just a puppet or a doll...
Or perhaps, a nobody to someone.
What is the sense of verbalizing out the words that must be verbalized when you cannot give chance to others?
The feeling of invalidating my whole existence, is such an insult.
I wished they didn't let me into their so-called friend group when all of the people were just silencing people out.
People even tell me...
"Why aren't you even talking to us, by the way?"
I sometimes want them to look in the mirror and tell how they are so big to talk.
I want to voice out my feelings that I kept for many years now...
Because of that, I was also scared of verbalizing it...
If I just had the confidence to speak out, this would've happened...
My whole existence was just a piece of written government paper.
But never to speak out the truthful and hurtful words that lead me to this.