Nora was frustrated, if she had any plans of being a model or something then she was definitely canceling that. She had been seated in front of the mirror for hours, styling her full wavy hair had been a difficult task for the stylist. Makeup was something Nora had loved.
When she was little, she would wear a princess gown and put on her mother's makeup. She loved being pretty but that was one thing her father had taken away from her. His words about her made her feel less confident making her lower her self esteem. When she was ten, she had asked for a hair shampoo as she had ran out of it. He suggested a soap, but she insisted a shampoo would be gentler on her long hair. He cut her hair, saying she wasn't any more attractive with long hair.
That was an unforgettable memory, she never asked for anything again and thought it would be much better she didn't care. She was deprived of the joys and privileges of childhood and teenage. Nora looked at the mirror, she felt of a mix of happiness and underlying sorrow. Yes, she was beautiful ; she had to remind herself. She smiled sadly thinking she just had to focus, find her sister and try to make up for the past years.
The makeup artist was done. She looked at Nora and said "I have never been so satisfied with my makeup, i don't think you even need this. I only just highlighted your beauty".
Nora smiled shyly "Thank you".
"Do you think Yoongi has a girlfriend?"
Nora was surprised by the sudden question, she became tensed. Why would she ask her that? She looked anxiously at her. "I don't know about that. Why did you ask?.
She pursed her lips and heaved a sigh like she wanted to say something really serious." I heard he had written the song in a day and"... She paused for a while before she continued "It's a song of longing and regret like he had missed someone. Everyone thinks he sang it for a woman."
'Guilty' was made for a woman?
Nora felt like a bucket of water had been poured all over her body, she felt embarrassed. What was she thinking? He obviously had someone he liked for the past years. Did he like that person so much that he had sang a song for her?
She had almost forgotten, he had been looking for someone and he had disappeared after that call and the bottles of alcohol she had seen. She had listened to the song but didn't really pay attention to the lyrics. She didn't think of what the song would have meant.
The song was R&B, it was his first as a soloist. It all made sense. In the music video, she was to stand by the sea shore, backing him, like she was out of reach and the team acted as storms of barrier keeping him from her. The second scene, he was drowning in a tub and she had to stop him. Who was this person he loved so much?
Nora cleaned her sweaty hands and scoffed. She had ignored all the signs and was so hopeful that he at least felt something towards her. Realizing what she was thinking, she swallowed hard thinking she could just ignore her feelings too ; she hadn't fallen for him deeply. Maybe it was just a crush, she would probably get over him. If it weren't for Seo joon or Casper she wouldn't even have a relationship with a man like Yoongi, whose status was so high that it would shine.
She quickly stood up and wore her dress, a V-neck tobacco coloured horizon dress. She breathed in and out, trying to lift her mood but it felt like there was a hole in her heart. She walked out of the room and headed to the elevator. Compliments flowed freely as she passed, she smiled sadly as she expressed gratitude. She stepped into the empty elevator still breathing in and out. Her feet restlessly stomped the elevator floors as she watched the floor number count down.
How was she going to face him while knowing all this? She wished she hadn't found out till after the video shoot. She hit her chest hard before walking out of the already opened elevator. With a determined stride, she exited the hotel walking towards the beach.
Halfway down the beach, Nora paused. She saw him, Yoongi was talking to the producer with a serious and firm expression. He wore a white loose neck cotton linen t-shirt and a pair of black pants. His raven black hair was let down, covering his forehead. He suddenly looked towards her direction, their eyes met. Nora sucked in her breath, time seemed to pause. His hair was easily blown by the breeze but his gaze remained fixed. Nora nervously bit her lower lips, his eyes followed her slow movement. She couldn't bring herself to cut off the gaze so she starred back in his dark eyes like she was being sucked in it.
The producer had followed his gaze "Oh my God Nora, i thank Hae in so much for going missing cause we wouldn't have discovered a masterpiece like you".
Nora reluctantly walked towards them, she gave him a forced smile. Everyone had heard the loud voice of the producer and had walked towards Nora to compliment her.
"Wow Nora, this dress was surely made for you. The slit is just perfect. Hae in wouldn't even look half like you if she had worn this dress".
"I am soo jealous, I have never seen someone that looked so good with a makeup as light as this. I can't wait to see the final outcome of this video".