When Ryan thought of this, he was suddenly startled. At this moment, he had understood a little.
This massive psychological panic was probably also a crisis created by the game.
The crisis had been evolving since the natural disaster, and it was ready to destroy him spiritually in its final stage.
Ryan's current feelings and situation fully prove this point.
There wasn't a single person in the world, and he hadn't spoken to anyone for nearly two months.
Continuous crises were being created, constantly battering Ryan's psychological defenses. Coupled with the endless rain that obscured the sun day in and day out, an extremely oppressive environment had been crafted.
This crisis, created from the outside in, had ultimately pushed Ryan to the brink of a mental breakdown.
At the moment of realization, Ryan suddenly felt his thoughts clearer ever than before.
This damn game had likely been designed for this very step from the beginning. So, this psychological crisis, along with the outside typhoon and rainstorm, were most likely the final crises.
"As long as I can hold on, maybe I can go back," he thought.
Ryan sat up abruptly in bed. He struggled to concentrate and began pondering how to resolve this damn panic and emptiness.
But at this moment, Ryan hadn't slept in three days, and coupled with that life-threatening panic, his mind simply couldn't focus.
Ryan started pacing back and forth in the room. His gaze suddenly landed on a book on the sofa, The Art of Impossible, which he had taken from Aileen's room.
He suddenly remembered that this book mentioned a method called "meditation," which could clarify one's thinking, maintain a high concentration level, make it easier to enter a state of flow, and unleash one's peak skills.
At this moment, in addition to this book, Ryan also recalled a news story he had seen before.
There was a British man named Andy. His relatives and friends died one after another. He could not face the pain of life, so he went to the Himalayas to become a monk.
He practiced meditation for 16 hours a day and spent 10 years as a monk.
Later, Andy returned to Britain and founded a professional meditation app, reportedly worth over a hundred million dollars.
Ryan's eyes lit up. Although he didn't know whether meditation could dispel panic, it had become his only choice now.
That foreigner in the Himalayas could persist for ten years with no internet or entertainment activities. He had no reason not to be able to do it.
Ryan took a few strides to the sofa, picked up The Art of Impossible again, and directly flipped to the page about the meditation method.
He had actually read this book once and was not unfamiliar with the content.
But when he saw the meditation method, he just glanced at it casually and ignored it without practicing it.
Now, Ryan regarded the meditation method as a lifeline. As he looked at the written method and read it several times, he immediately began to try it out.
The most important aspects of meditation are breathing and clearing one's mind of distractions, such as negative emotions and even things that make one feel good.
"I feel empty and panicky because I have too many thoughts and desires, and I am afraid that I will never be able to go back, which makes me unable to calm down forever."
At this moment, Ryan had an unprecedented awareness of his own condition.
And because of this, Ryan also began to develop resistance to the invasion of panic, no longer being instantly dominated by it as he had been at the beginning.
However, in the first few minutes of practicing meditation, Ryan could not control himself. He was constantly distracted, and his thoughts were inevitably occupied by panic.
But Ryan was not discouraged. This had become his only choice. If he wanted to calm down and endure the loneliness and fear, learning meditation was the best option. It didn't matter if he interrupted; he would just start over again.
Ryan tried repeatedly, and whenever his mind wandered or he was overcome by panic, he would focus on his breathing again.
As time passed, Ryan could clearly feel that he was persisting longer and longer.
While practicing, Ryan actually fell asleep on the sofa.
This sleep was extremely sound. He sank into a deep sleep, ignoring everything outside.
Ryan Miller had never slept so comfortably before. He didn't even have a dream. Even the lightning, thunder, wind and rain outside couldn't wake him up.
The moment Ryan opened his eyes, he felt refreshed. Looking at the dark sky, wind, and rain outside, he was no longer as annoyed as before.
Ryan glanced at the time. He had slept for 26 hours; it was already the 58th day since he entered this world.
Ryan suddenly felt energized. He knew he had found the correct method this time.
After finding some food to eat, he immediately began to continue practicing meditation.
As he practiced more and more, he gradually grasped the key.
Ryan Miller knew that he had to notice the distracting thoughts in time, and retract them in time, and notice them repeatedly and retract them repeatedly.
In this deserted world and trapped in this building, Ryan has nothing to do but practice meditation continuously.
After another week, Ryan could meditate for up to an hour without interruption.
But panic still came at him during this period, and there was even a growing trend.
Ryan became more and more certain because this showed that meditation was really working.
He began to "dance" with the panic.
"When your mind is free of distractions and thoughts, you are truly calm. Then you can observe and control your thoughts and feelings, and this is truly controlling yourself."
After mastering this key, Ryan continued to practice non-stop for 10 more days.
By the 75th day after Ryan entered this world, he could meditate continuously for up to 4 hours every day.
Ryan's state of mind gradually became calm and composed, and the panic finally disappeared at this time.
Ryan discovered that not only had he dispelled the panic in his heart, but his entire temperament and state had also undergone a fundamental change.
Ryan didn't notice this change at first, until one day when he accidentally saw himself in the mirror, he couldn't help but be stunned momentarily.
Because Ryan didn't recognize the person in the mirror as himself at first glance.
In these more than two months, Ryan's experiences could be described as nothing short of a struggle for survival.
In this extreme living environment, human potential was squeezed to the extreme.
Anyone who could endure it would likely undergo some changes.
Ryan had experienced life and death several times, and had suffered tremendous damage both physically and mentally.
After enduring it, although his appearance hadn't changed much, his temperament had undergone an earth-shaking transformation.
Ryan's temperament in the mirror had become calm and composed, especially his eyes, which were peaceful and filled with an indescribable, strong self-confidence.